Filed under: Generalness, Uncategorized | Tags: Boredom, Generalness, life, Summer
I have returned.
After months of silence due to exams and other such high-school-is-ending events.I’m also paranoid about upcoming IB grades, but let’s not talk about that. And now I am so very bored. It’s amazing how there are so many possibilities yet I can’t think of anything to do. Reading is the only thing I do regularly. I’ve been burning through Jodi Picoult’s stuff, which is just amazing. But I can’t, for some reason, bear to start another one right now.
Sigh. Summer is so awesome, isn’t it. XD
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Dreams, Generalness, life, memory, Nightmares, Prom Dresses, Reach for the Top, weird
Really weird ones..recently.
First one involved prom dresses…and the second one involved a strange setup and our team losing to one I did not want to lose to on Reach For The Top. : / Nerdy, i know.
Weird, because these are fairly trivial. And from an analytical point of view, not issues that I’m worried about.
Oh, plus another nightmare/distant memory- these pills I remember taking when I was younger that were like honey-coloured gel capsules and tasted horrible. Don’t remember what that was about though. I can almost remember the taste of them though…isn’t it odd when you can almost taste or smell a memory? I have had that experience before, but only for a few specific memories, and usually triggered by something. : o
I started to listen to my old CD’s yesterday, while I was doing work, and I was just blown away by the nostalgia that I experienced.
The degree to which music is a part of our lives is just amazing, I think. I have a wide range in terms of taste, so music has always been a very important part of my life, as I’m sure it is to others too. And the feelings it can evoke are…just mind-blowing. It can express those feelings that cannot be expressed by words alone. Music makes me laugh and cry; it can make me fall asleep contentedly, or wake up and anticipate the day; it can relax me or invigorate me…so much capacity.
I was chuckling over the first thing I listened to (Pokemon 2000 soundtrack; no one laugh >: o) and so on- it was like I just started to relive memories…Even I was amazed at the various music I’ve collected over the years.
The music reminds me of days gone by, not even that long ago; the things I was crazy about. And I know what I listen to today will affect me as much as what I listened to then. : 3
I don’t know what I would do without music. <3
: D What I’m listening to now: You Found Me – The Fray (;__; makes me cry)
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: Control Freak, Europe, Friends, Generalness, Grad, Italy, me, Summer, Trip, Vacation
Yayyyy! My dream might actually come true : D
My family is planning to go to Europe this summer, since this is probably one of the most carefree summers in my young life : /
And my mother said something about how we might be able to stay in Italy a little while : D So I’m already making plans in my head. Hahaha. I wonder whatever happened to “It’s not safe”…
Meanwhile, I must also plan for a grad trip =___=. My friends have the habit of waiting for too long to make plans…secretly, they know I’m a control freak who must have some semblance of a plan and so I usually end up being the one to plan anything when we go out (unless it’s actually their birthday or something… in which case obviously they would decide)…I should be more laid back. But I can’t help it : o
In any case, this summer is looking promising.I shall make it as fun as possible
> : D
…of course there are still loads of exams to get through =_______=
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: admission, e-mail, Generalness, happy, Mcmaster, U of T, university
Two Uni acceptances today- one from U of T Scarborough and one from Mcmaster!
I’m so happy! ^_^ I was getting sort of depressed over the lack of university applications in conjunction with (and contributing to ) my growing feelings of inadequacy.
I also tend to check e-mail a bit obsessively these days. Which I find odd, considering I used to hate checking e-mail and would forsake my Gmail account for weeks at a time.
Now I must go back to doing work…Or trying to.
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: Amalfi Coast, family, First Class All the Way, IB, Italy, parents, procrastination, safety, school, travel
Yup. I’m a major idiot. Also a very sleep deprived idiot. It’s like a disease…or a drug? Hahaha. Whatever it is, its an addiction, and I would swear IB made it exponentially worse. My mother told me that apparently when I was younger and she was doing her ECE thing, I would always tell her not to do it at the last minute…look at me now. =__=
But, hey, at least the hellish nightmare we call math portfolios are done. My mom was looking at the 22 page horror this morning and was like “I can’t even begin to understand this…” : o
On a positive/dreamier note, I saw an episode of First Class All the Way this weekend (I think I’m actually starting to like that show, probably because I love travel) and I am now IN LOVE with the Amalfi Coast. I was already really really really wanting to go to Italy. Now it’s just passed the line of obsession..=__= which is sad because I probably won’t go there for a while…my dad just keeps saying “It’s not really safe.” (0_o)..Yeah. I don’t get it.
My parents have a skewed view of safety…for example, they let me go to…let’s see Quebec City when I was like 12 ish…Europe (France, Belgium, Netherlands, notably AMSTERDAM) when I was 15..yes these were school trips..but we spent a substantial amount of time by ourselves.. : )…but yeah. going with my family to another country “isn’t safe.” >_>
I hope I can go to Italy soon. : 3
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: Generalness, life, me, turbulent, universities
Nothing new. The title says it all.
Sometimes, everything is happening so fast, I feel like if I close my eyes I’ll miss it. It seems like I had my goals/life planned out, and then the time came when universities come calling…and my goals just sort of…fell apart. I started questioning everything, and even now, after I’ve applied, still am questioning. The speed of it all, just amazes me and scares me all at the same time. I hope though, that when I look back on this all, I won’t have too many important regrets, and many cherished memories : D.
It was interesting though, one of my friends, O, was talking about another friend, K, who doesn’t seem to be that stressed out about this whole transition in life process that is occurring, and she can’t imagine how he manages that. I started wondering, whether there’s a point in stressing about it…I’m pretty indecisive, so sometimes I think, yes because you might waste years doing something you don’t want to do. But sometimes I think, who cares about “wasted” years…surely every part of your life is worth living and there is no such thing as “wasted”…And then there’s my other friend, F, who…is a determinist…yet still tries to convince me to switch out of the sciences/humanities stream I seem to be starting upon.>_>
I would like to spend some time in the NEAR future, where I don’t have to worry about universities, graduating, EE, IB, etc. etc. etc….some day when my life isn’t turbulent…
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: bawww, gaaaaaah, Generalness, Jamie Oliver, sick, slumdog millionaire, Tamil Tigers, university, university application forms, weather
Soooo sick =___= I feel horrible *cryy* so I’m bawwwing.
This snow is driving me crazy. It’s still January, but don’t we deserve some sort of respite? >_<…It (the weather) was actually nice for a couple of days. Oddly, it was nice during exams, then promptly started snowing the day after my last exam…
What else is new?
University application forms…why are they so longgggg? : o But I suppose they’re helpful if they’re longer =0=…Some questions are so redundant though.
I saw Jamie Oliver on a cooking show wearing a shirt that stylishly said on the front ‘Tamil Tigers’. : / I was weirded out. They blurred it throughout the show though, which was sort of distracting…I don’t know why they just didn’t ask him to change. Speaking of which, that conflict has really begun to heat up for a while now…I think the rest of the world has finally started to notice…
On a more positive note!
Slumdog Millionaire has been Oscar-nommed! Not only that, two of its songs have been chosen for best song! That, I wasn’t really expecting because I didn’t think they would consider them…since they’re in Hindi. But they did! How cool is that : D I am so excited! XD
Filed under: Generalness | Tags: clumsy me, cold, funny, life, random, snow, weird
Indeed, I have returned! Even if it’s because I have ulterior motives (i.e. a respite from my studying for exams and working on my Extended Essay). Life’s been turbulent, as usual. It’s snowing. As it has been since the beginning of this year…=__= After shoveling loads of it, I must express my passionate dislike of it. Really, snow is no longer amusing after Christmas, and the weather systems up there just don’t get it. > : o And cold weather like this really slows me down..makes me extremely unmotivated in the case of getting things (like schoolwork) done. Instead, I do random things, like watching the Golden Globes (WOOT! ARRahman!) and rereading my copy of “Strange and Fascinating Facts about the Royal Family”…
Oh! A really embarrassing, funny and just plain weird thing happened to me the other day. On my way home after school, I stepped off the crosswalk and promptly got my foot stuck in a snowbank (the ones piled up by the plows at the corner of each intersection)…my boot came off and I stepped in ice cold water =_=. I turned and in the process of retrieving the boot, somehow (SOMEHOW!) managed to accomplish the same feat with my other foot…By that time, the pedestrian signal had almost finished its countdown, so I jumped back on to the sidewalk. This must have been really amusing for the other people at the intersection, in cars or whatever.
My friends just had this shocked look on their faces- for that I was grateful, as one of them is prone to ridiculing me in these kind of situations..(not that this kind of thing has happened before..I don’t want it to be thought that I normally get my feet stuck in snow..though I DID sprain my ankle tripping over a clump of snow once)
But anyways, I was lucky that a mall was nearby, so I called my Mom to pick me up, and went inside to clean up and buy a new pair of socks : p. The funny thing was, I came home later and chanced to read my horoscope, which I don’t usually pay too much attention to…It included the line “A misplaced shoe will waste time”.
This hasn’t started any belief in astrology though…: p
